3105

曾經的我們，很珍惜彼此，如今全都被我毀了，也許真的是我的錯，也許你們也無法諒解原諒我，可是沒關係，我還能很堅強地，就算是多難熬，多心疼，就只剩這麼兩個月了，兩個月後你們就不會再看見我了，而我也不會再出現在你們的面前，也許這就是你們所要的吧，心有多痛，身有多痛，就得先忍著吧!忍!

啊~~多麽痛的領悟，妳曾是我的全部~~
曾經你是我的全部，如今你依然是我的全部，這次....輪不到我說放不下了，慢慢淡掉自己的心去接受吧，現實。
#我的心如刀割，只能用睡眠來麻痺自己不去看這個世界#

11042014

平凡的一天，依然保持沉默地我，突然被勾起一些不愉快的回憶，即使今天有多麽的忙，我也能讓自己有時間去想那些有的沒的，我的眼淚，嘗試著掉下來，可它還是失敗了，別人說我堅強，我不能否認也不能承認，因為每個人也有脆弱的一面，當你真的走累了，請歇歇腳步，讓自己放空，太多負面的畫面又再次浮現，自然而然會覺得自己其實很渺小，我真的很渺小!我真的無能為力，不懂還能撐多久，只希望明天會更好，一切順其自然就好，我認命了。

16082013

When we growing up, there are a lot of change in everything~~~
If a person who really understand you, they wouldn't ask so much thing as they already know what actually was happened. A relationship doesn't come easily,if you didn't appreciate,it would gone and one day later you would regret. As I know you are still young now, maybe there are a lot of things that you never met before,once you come to this society, you would realize what I'm facing now~~
It's really pain, not everything can solve easily, with a smile~~
It's really stress,Damn stress til you can't even breath........
Lost the way to live,to sucess or everything~~It make you Give up easily as it's really hard to continue with what we are doing~~~
It's really upset sometimes we try to understand others but they didn't understand what we are trying to send to you~~I'm really upset and dissapointed when you do something that Unpredictable~~
But....I hope I'm able to solve that with a smile,wouldn't be so stress,wouldn't feeling hurt and pain........

02052013

You don't understand what's going on there.....And you don't even understand my thinking,i had tried to explain to you,but you still the same,you don't understand,until sometimes i felt tired to explain to you anymore,it's very tiring you know??Sometimes i choose to be silently doesn't meant that i don't willing to tell you but because of i know you won't understand what i'm trying to explain to you,i don't to make the relationship between us become more worse....
I'm very appreciate you as my family,as my mum...Yes!of cause i'm so love you but doesn't meant that i don't have my own opinion in everything.....I live for myself and try the best for my ow future of cause...I know you just want to see all of us success but please don't try to control all that,don't try to control us where we have to go....Sometimes maybe you're right but sometimes you're not,everything have to be try,and if you keep controlling it's just will be more stress on me.....

Ya,i confess that i'm very playful,but doesn't meant that i'm not responsible,i just don't want to make myself stress and spoiled all the things that i'm doing......Doing a work without stress is better than everthing....maybe it would become better but not perfect,nothing is perfect.......But..at least i had tried to do the best and produce the best....Everything...we have to understand it deeply....don't only judge a book by that cover.....because not everyone would show their achievement,so please just observe it deeply.....Don't try to complaint on what people had done without understanding everything.....  

对妈妈说的话

妈~~我告诉你，有些人真的不值得你去为他伤心，过去了就让他过去吧，我知道你还是放不下，毕竟是那么多年的朋友，一定有很深的感情，但你要相信你自己，你一定可以把那些不愉快的给忘记掉，有时候我知道你还放不下，偶尔也有想提起的念头，但在我面前你还是选择了往心里憋，因为你知道你告诉我后我会一直在说一直怎样，一直胡思乱想。

但其实有时候我保持沉默只是为了想让你忘记它，毕竟她也不是什么好的东西，我们一定要相信 “人在做，天在看”，上帝一定会帮我们，她必定会得到报应，有时候看到别人那样我们也管不着那么多，他爱怎样就怎样，随便她要怎么做。

妈~~~好戏还在后头，现在你可以看到她是怎样对待别人的，幸好你是离开得早，不然你会更痛苦。这一切就让它结束吧!我们会一直陪着你的。你也不必一直担心了。 =')


#拭目以待#

2013年的第一次更新

其实有很多心里话想说出来，可是不知要怎么说

所以选择了记载在这里

今年的我天真的以为新的一年，新的开始，就是有新的事情会让自己更开心

原来这一切都只是一场梦，这一场梦来的很突然

我又回到了4年前的那个我，真的好辛苦

无论什么方式我都无法放下，我真的不知道该怎么办

学业里的压力一天比一天增加，这么痛苦的生活，

真的很让我失控，喘不过气来，我真的很想就这样结束

加上各方面的问题，每天都遇到不同的问题

我已经没有能力再去想，去解决，去分析

到底什么是对什么是错

有时候选择无理取闹都是为了掩饰自己心里的痛

我真的很辛苦，有没有能让我不痛苦的方法?

T.T

最近的不愉快

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